Monday, August 18, 2008
“You shall observe my statutes and my commandments which a human being shall perform; and you shall live by them” (Leviticus 18:5)
I was thinking this morning, had I not discovered Judaism when I was fourteen years old, where I would be today?
The sad truth is, I would probably be in a grave.
I was adopted as an infant, however my biological family had a history of depression. My father’s father shot himself in his sixties after his wife died of cancer. My father was frequently hospitalized for depression. Depression is often hereditary.
In addition to that, many of my ancestors have been alcoholic – including my father, my mother’s father and my mother’s grandfather. Addiction often runs in families.
Also, I was adopted. Adopted children may be more likely to suffer abuse compared to other children. Adopted children, on the average, are treated more like pets than like family members.
In light of all this, it would seem very likely that had I not chosen Judaism, I would have fallen into depression and addiction and an early death. I doubt that I would have survived college.
Reading about and listening to the story of someone like Nic Sheff, reminds me so much of myself, however I would not have had the family support he had.
Through Judaism I first of all learned that suicide is not a solution. On the contrary, suicide is murder and someone who commits suicide will not escape his problems but rather will suffer in hell after death. Judaism has taught me how to build self-control and avoid addictions. Through Judaism I have also become part of a community and I have friends who help me get over hard times.
I wish to humbly thank all the amazing people who made my conversion possible and who in fact saved my life as well as my soul. When I converted I truly dodged a bullet.
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